Restive Thoughts

I left my necklace in your car...
You held me tight when we said goodbye...

You probably don't remember back that far...
Sometimes it seems uncomfortably near by...

At the wrong place in the wrong time
In another world, what could have been...

A silent victim of your own choosing...
Thoughts always kept quietly within.

You never asked what was on your mind...
And for your best, I quietly slipped away...

And just as quick as it began..
Seam by scene I watched it all defray.

I'm in another place, another time...
Yet, these restive thoughts I still remember....

Times like these I wonder now...
If you still think...of that...November.

Dusting Off The Pages

The girl you no longer think about...

Is writing you this letter...

Perhaps someday you'll read it...

But, that won't make it better.

The girl you no longer think about...

Is thinking about you today.

And how you made a fool of her...

Believing everything you'd say.

Was she just a casualty in your war?

Was your victory, worth her blood?

Cause she bled for you for days...

Till the grounds began to flood.

Wasn't she too young for your kind?

At least you don't discriminate...

Cold and hard...

Like what you sleep on...

Criminal...

Like the man you hate...

You did something that changed her...

The girl who's name you don't remember...

She thinks things differently now...

That fires turned to cinder.

The girl you no longer think about...

Hopes your better than you were to her...

That her destruction did something for you...

That now...

You aren't...

The man you were.


Ashes to ashes...

Dust to Dust

She's buried her enmity

In a Hutch with your name.

Tragic really...

That you couldn't see further...

To you, she was only...

Ever...

A game.

Reality

I'm not sure, just how to pen this...
Not sure where to begin...

My whole life I've been two steps aside...
Born to not fit in...

And it's not really that I mind it...
It's just I can't seem to understand...

How so many, see so differently...
Living in a world of their own brand...

Maybe I just feel more, but, tell me...
At what point did love become, unmoving?

Maybe I just hurt more, but, really...
When did others pain become, amusing?

Which step was it, that was taken...
That made every thought process change...

That to show kindness to a stranger...
Would be looked down upon as strange...

I'm not sure, just how to pen this...
But, my heart is heavy this day...

For so many see the darker side...
Only to turn...and look away.

Biscayne Drive

There's a phone ringing in a house, that won't be answered...
There's a rocker outside, that won't be sat on again....

Here's a letter to you, that I should have written sooner...
Instead, there's salt water mixed with the ink from my pen....

There's a dusty path here, never again we'll walk on...
For now you'll dance and run and skip on streets of gold...

A place where your body, never again, shall betray you...
A land in which, all who live, will not grow old...

Years from now, from my mouth, your name will be spoken...
All our memories, with my life, shall live on...

I hope to be, someone, you always could be proud of...
A life from which, great integrity is drawn...

I don't know, if I ever told you, the things that really mattered...
But, somehow, the unspoken words, I think you knew...

Your fingerprints upon my life, will diminish...never.
My always friend...Ella Mae...Mazie...
I shall miss you...

Eclipse

Another day......
Another month and year....
Time moves on...
But, I'm still here.

In this place so familiar....
I could see it blind....
There's nothing here...
But, frozen time.

I've watched them come.....
I've watched them go....
Took their last breath...
I didn't know.

Cause they were there.....
And I was here....
A different place in time...
So far, yet near...

An interchanging course...
Who's paths never cross...
Except for brief moments...
To recognize the loss....

Another second...
Another hour...
The clock is crystal clear...
Time moves on...it always does
And always, I'm still here.