Don't tell me...
This is goodbye...
I don't know if...
I can fight this fight...
I need you...please...
Breathe into my life....
In this darkness...
I need some light...
I can't see...
On this dark night....
I need you...please...
Breathe into my life...
Who gives the air...
That we breathe in...
Could heal a soul...
And spirit weakened...
I need you...please...
Breathe into my life....
Monday, October 29, 2012
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
A Day Of Birth
It's another year...gone.
No pictures to be drawn.
So I'll bury myself...
In words.
In pages and numbers...
And aching, wild hungers...
Envying the simple freedom...
Of birds.
The promise of tomorrow...
And yesterdays broken sorrow...
One score and five...
Where do I fit in?
The hurting still reminds me...
Of things only the blind see...
And of the truth...
You have to loose, to win.
Saturday, September 22, 2012
To Jack...
Here's to all they said about you...
To my naivety, believing it untrue...
To the hill you made me climb...
And all the things you misconstrued.
To the water we were fetching...
That was only there for me to drown...
And though I didn't see it then...
You never did...
Have a crown.
The view from way up high...
Wasn't all I thought it would be...
Surrounded by a scorched land...
Fire's smoke, settling on the sea.
And when the air had cleared...
The ashes were slippery on the rafters...
When you fell down, I kissed the ground...
But I...I didn't come tumbling after.
To my naivety, believing it untrue...
To the hill you made me climb...
And all the things you misconstrued.
To the water we were fetching...
That was only there for me to drown...
And though I didn't see it then...
You never did...
Have a crown.
The view from way up high...
Wasn't all I thought it would be...
Surrounded by a scorched land...
Fire's smoke, settling on the sea.
And when the air had cleared...
The ashes were slippery on the rafters...
When you fell down, I kissed the ground...
But I...I didn't come tumbling after.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Narcissistic
This poem was inspired by my take on the great Hawthorne's "The Scarlet Letter. Written from Hester Pryne's point of view and written to Dimmesdale.
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A trail of breadcrumbs led me back here...
Ones too tempting to turn down...
Now satiated, here I stand...
Treading the land, of your home town.
It's been long and time has aged you...
Yet, your presence calls me still...
Do you tell your children, stories of me...
Inside your house upon the hill?
Your wife is sweet, and beautiful...
Full, of all that is good and right...
And I hope she never comes to learn...
Of those, you buried in at night.
I wonder, whose doors you now darken...
Upon whom, affections you bestow...
Under the dark covers of dishonesty..
What brand of passion, do you now grow?
I wave goodbye, to your sad existence...
As I turn, I beg you to stay there...
To see the treasures that lay before you
And to finally give them...their due care.
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A trail of breadcrumbs led me back here...
Ones too tempting to turn down...
Now satiated, here I stand...
Treading the land, of your home town.
It's been long and time has aged you...
Yet, your presence calls me still...
Do you tell your children, stories of me...
Inside your house upon the hill?
Your wife is sweet, and beautiful...
Full, of all that is good and right...
And I hope she never comes to learn...
Of those, you buried in at night.
I wonder, whose doors you now darken...
Upon whom, affections you bestow...
Under the dark covers of dishonesty..
What brand of passion, do you now grow?
I wave goodbye, to your sad existence...
As I turn, I beg you to stay there...
To see the treasures that lay before you
And to finally give them...their due care.
Friday, August 24, 2012
Warden
I wouldn't have let go...
I would have kept you yesterday....
And lavishly, covered myself up
In my own selfish captivation's.
But last night, I watched you sleeping;
And I'm not keeping you this way.
I was your North Star when you were lost,
Now, you need different constellations.
There's a whole word waiting for you out there,
Yet, so long as I am here,
You will stay...
And I know...
When you see my footprints on this wet ground,
You will not understand...
You'll curse my name.
And hate my soul.
Putting every one of my faults out on display....
And as I watch you take to new heights soaringly...
Only then...
Roaringly...
I'll crash land.
In that wreckage...
I'll burn this letter...
So you'll never know how I wished to keep you....
When your old and grey,
And no longer remember me,
My heart...
By you...
Will still be stained.
I was your North star,
But, you were my world,
Without you, there's nothing here to live through.
Still, I'd rather die...
On this burning, wet ground.
Than to breathe...
Knowing.
By me.
You were chained.
I would have kept you yesterday....
And lavishly, covered myself up
In my own selfish captivation's.
But last night, I watched you sleeping;
And I'm not keeping you this way.
I was your North Star when you were lost,
Now, you need different constellations.
There's a whole word waiting for you out there,
Yet, so long as I am here,
You will stay...
And I know...
When you see my footprints on this wet ground,
You will not understand...
You'll curse my name.
And hate my soul.
Putting every one of my faults out on display....
And as I watch you take to new heights soaringly...
Only then...
Roaringly...
I'll crash land.
In that wreckage...
I'll burn this letter...
So you'll never know how I wished to keep you....
When your old and grey,
And no longer remember me,
My heart...
By you...
Will still be stained.
I was your North star,
But, you were my world,
Without you, there's nothing here to live through.
Still, I'd rather die...
On this burning, wet ground.
Than to breathe...
Knowing.
By me.
You were chained.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Relapsing
Crawling back to you...
As natural as the marrow in my bone...
The familiarity of this worn path...
Deep within me, is sewn...
So, I'll drink in your essence...
'Til I'm so drunk that I can't see...
The person that I know you are...
The one, I know, you cannot be.
Crawling back to you...
And I know, I won't, I cannot...stay...
But, it's enough.
Just here.
With you.
To keep the thoughts of you...
Away...
As natural as the marrow in my bone...
The familiarity of this worn path...
Deep within me, is sewn...
So, I'll drink in your essence...
'Til I'm so drunk that I can't see...
The person that I know you are...
The one, I know, you cannot be.
Crawling back to you...
And I know, I won't, I cannot...stay...
But, it's enough.
Just here.
With you.
To keep the thoughts of you...
Away...
Monday, August 13, 2012
Arizona
I walked on the path you told me to,
Even as it fell beneath my feet...
On your orders I marched to battle,
Even though I only saw defeat...
I called you still, my hero...
Though you didn't deserve the name.
I breathed to do your bidding,
And I loved you just the same.
It's a cold and silent night here.
My head has no place to rest.
My feet are torn and blistered.
And all my sanity has left.
I've got battle scars left on me,
From being your good soldier.
That girl you said was priceless,
Time has shown, you sold her.
The promises you made me...
Strange, they sounded all so true....
And every time you broke them...
I put the pieces back with glue.
I called you still, my master...
But, it didn't change what you were.
I loved you then, even knowing...
The impairment I would incur.
Even as it fell beneath my feet...
On your orders I marched to battle,
Even though I only saw defeat...
I called you still, my hero...
Though you didn't deserve the name.
I breathed to do your bidding,
And I loved you just the same.
It's a cold and silent night here.
My head has no place to rest.
My feet are torn and blistered.
And all my sanity has left.
I've got battle scars left on me,
From being your good soldier.
That girl you said was priceless,
Time has shown, you sold her.
The promises you made me...
Strange, they sounded all so true....
And every time you broke them...
I put the pieces back with glue.
I called you still, my master...
But, it didn't change what you were.
I loved you then, even knowing...
The impairment I would incur.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Blurry Lines
I'm not sure how to redeem us from this...
My heart is blistering as I think these thoughts...
Years from now, I won't be something you'll miss...
I'll just be, something in your life, that never belonged...
So, to you, I'm saying sorry, not just for tonight...
And I fear that I can't do this, my lips can't say goodbye...
For it lapidates my spirit, to walk away from this fight...
Still in my heart,sure as I know you...
For you, I know, I'm wrong.
I wouldn't tear your life apart, you'd blithely do it for me...
Without a thought....
For each, and every victim, you would slay...
They'd be the salt in the wounds, I'd always taste and feel...
And I'm not too young, to know what's right..
To turn and walk away...
I'm sure you'll put my name on a list
Of all those who've betrayed you...
When in truth, it's only my heart,
By me,
Who's been betrayed....
I'll stand before you now,
Trying my best not to be see through...
Perhaps, one day you'll see why...
I never could have stayed.
I'm really trying hard, but...
I don't know what to do with this...
My hands are blistering,
As to you, I write these words, unheard...
Years from now,
I'll be,
Just one more name that you'll dismiss...
A girl from a place and time,
Back when your lines,
Were blurred....
My heart is blistering as I think these thoughts...
Years from now, I won't be something you'll miss...
I'll just be, something in your life, that never belonged...
So, to you, I'm saying sorry, not just for tonight...
And I fear that I can't do this, my lips can't say goodbye...
For it lapidates my spirit, to walk away from this fight...
Still in my heart,sure as I know you...
For you, I know, I'm wrong.
I wouldn't tear your life apart, you'd blithely do it for me...
Without a thought....
For each, and every victim, you would slay...
They'd be the salt in the wounds, I'd always taste and feel...
And I'm not too young, to know what's right..
To turn and walk away...
I'm sure you'll put my name on a list
Of all those who've betrayed you...
When in truth, it's only my heart,
By me,
Who's been betrayed....
I'll stand before you now,
Trying my best not to be see through...
Perhaps, one day you'll see why...
I never could have stayed.
I'm really trying hard, but...
I don't know what to do with this...
My hands are blistering,
As to you, I write these words, unheard...
Years from now,
I'll be,
Just one more name that you'll dismiss...
A girl from a place and time,
Back when your lines,
Were blurred....
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